Psalm 143:1 Hear my prayer, O Lord, give ear to my supplications: in thy faithfulness answer me, and in thy righteousness.
Have you ever felt that your prayers were literally going unanswered? Despite your pleas, despite your faith, and righteous desire, you still do not hear or feel the inspiration, the answer that you feel you need? That you deserve?
I have been wrestling with this exact issue in my life of late.
I wanted an answer gosh darn it. Frankly, with the current trial, I wanted a bunch of answers.
And so I turned to scriptures, to prayer, to music, to all sorts of gospel mediums to try and seek the pathway we (as in myself, my husband and our family) should go.
As I turned my gaze heavenward over and over, it was very quiet.
Much quieter than I wanted.
I wanted some overwhelming conviction of what we were supposed to do.
And yet, the crickets chirped.
For weeks this went on.
Until, one day, something shifted in my own heart and mind.
It occurred to me that despite study, prayer, etc, I wasn't actually doing my part. I wasn't acting.
"TELL ME WHAT TO DO!" wasn't going to get me anywhere.
Think of the Brother of Jared, when he went to the Lord with very legitimate and big problems, the Lord provided SOME of the answers but He also required the Brother of Jared to do some leg-work too.
Ether 2:25 And behold, I prepare you against these things; for ye cannot cross this great deep save I prepare you against the waves of the sea, and the winds which have gone forth, and the floods which shall come. Therefore what will ye that I should prepare for you that ye may have light when ye are swallowed up in the depths of the sea?
What WILL YE that I should prepare...
In other words, "What are you going to do about, Mahonri?"
In this case, God expected His child to use the intellect he had to figure it out.
God can do anything, anything that we ask. Sometimes He says no, and sometimes He says yes.
Sometimes, He says nothing.
Richard G. Scott said, "When he withholds an answer, it is to have grow through faith in Him, obedience to His commandments, and a willingness to act on truth. We are expected to assume accountability by acting on a decision that is consistent with His teachings without prior confirmation. We are not to sit passively waiting or to murmur because the Lord has not spoken. We are to act."
This simple, profound truth can be TERRIFYING.
Just do it.
Do what is right, let the consequence follow.
Use prior knowledge, insight, gospel truths and your own intellect to make a choice and move forward.
Scariest thing in the world.
Yet, it is also incredibly freeing, to say, "Lord, I am trying to have faith. I'm going to go ahead with this. Help it all be okay. Help ME be okay with whatever comes."
"Come what may and love it."
So, maybe God is choosing to be silent.
Isn't it amazing?
His silence is proof to you of HIS ultimate faith in YOU. He knows you well enough to know that you will not fail Him.
He trusts in YOU as you trust in Him.
God's silence is His faith in His child.
So have faith in Him as He has faith in you.
You'll find the quiet a lot less terrifying.